sadness vs angry

I hate liars,, so much. i lied for years so that is probably why. i would rather a friend ,bf, room-mate or co-worker not play games with me , tiptoeing around. that was  last night, i cried so much and  i was so angry at this person .yes, my ex BF lives today in my apartment and it aint to cool.  he is at home , sleeping on my couch right now as as he hasnt bought a bed of his own .he acts like he has done nothing wrong and that i am a control freak. well maybe , but i keep my home safe. he has started drinking  :( thus all the lies.   he has not said anything about last night  and ,right now, i am just to depressed to question him anymore. so i lay in my AC room  with my Matilda Crying today.
its his lies that bother me. if he wants to drink away from house , go for it! but dont lie to me !!!

today i pray for everyone hurting out there in this great big world , that they may have moments of peace

Matilda is mad at me  for some reason. she hasnt slept with me for 2 nights. what a bitch haha.
as for me , my hep c treatment has started. i am just over a week in. I am hoping i will not get anemic again and need blood transfusions. so far my Hemoglobin is was up . i started at 152. it is now at 140.this is regular and a good count. a person doesnt get transfused till 90. in general 115-160 is normal. my platelets have fallen quickly though. i went from 165 to a low 100.
it is nice to have my ehealth on line so i can see my blood counts my self.
so i am living day to day and have taken lots off my plate.
my worry and rushing has calmed down :)
today i pray for everyone hurting out there in this great big world , that they may have moments of peace