only positive today

the evil cat people are moving out !!!! :) meow!!!!!!!!!!!!
and so is Ron today !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i have a decrease in my rent from my landlord !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

pissed off and loving the rain

I tried to clip Matilda's nails yesterday. what a bitch! she is still mad a t me , wont  sleep with me , etc.

as for me , this is where my blood count and liver count is.  :(  rest rest rest

Critical Result Notification
Test Name			NEUTROPHILS
Reason for Contact			CRITICAL
Last Name of Person Contacted			Person contacted declined to provide last name.
First Name of Person Contacted			KARI
Date			13/09/19		YY/MM/DD
Time			15:39		h
Result Read Back?			Yes
Hematology
WBC		L	1.0	4.0 - 11.0	10*9/L
RBC		L	3.30	3.50 - 5.00	10*12/L
Hemoglobin		L	95	115 - 160	g/L
Hematocrit		L	0.30	0.35 - 0.47	L/L
MCV			92	80 - 100	fL
MCH			28.8	27.0 - 34.0	pg
MCHC			315	315 - 365	g/L
Platelet Count		L	45	150 - 400	10*9/L
Differential
Neutrophils		LL	0.4	2.0 - 8.0	10*9/L
Lymphocytes		L	0.5	1.0 - 4.0	10*9/L
Monocytes			0.1	< 0.9	10*9/L
Eosinophils			0.0	< 0.8	10*9/L
Basophils			0.0	< 0.3	10*9/L
Granulocytes Immature			0.0	< 0.2	10*9/L
RBC Morphology
Polychromasia			1+
Platelets
Platelet Estimate			DECREASED
General Chemistry
Albumin			44	35 - 50	g/L
Total Bilirubin			10	< 25	umol/L
Alkaline Phosphatase			54	35 - 120	U/L
ALT		H	41	< 36	U/L
AST		H	45	< 36	Ul.

home today

looking forward to seeing my Matilda Bitch -lol
working with people is so exhausting on this treatment . could be PART of the reason I Isolate. my depression  sucks energy from me too. When My roommate is gone . my depression will calm down ,I am sure :) ill be home by noon after I check in on my parents <3 p="">

Hurricane in my mind is going to end !

yep to many days, months and years putting up with someone i thought i needed. I was just fine before i knew him . and i have never even been in love with him . he has been a big help but.... I have to  get on with my life , and find the life i am meant to have ,happily :)

sadness vs angry

I hate liars,, so much. i lied for years so that is probably why. i would rather a friend ,bf, room-mate or co-worker not play games with me , tiptoeing around. that was  last night, i cried so much and  i was so angry at this person .yes, my ex BF lives today in my apartment and it aint to cool.  he is at home , sleeping on my couch right now as as he hasnt bought a bed of his own .he acts like he has done nothing wrong and that i am a control freak. well maybe , but i keep my home safe. he has started drinking  :( thus all the lies.   he has not said anything about last night  and ,right now, i am just to depressed to question him anymore. so i lay in my AC room  with my Matilda Crying today.
its his lies that bother me. if he wants to drink away from house , go for it! but dont lie to me !!!

today i pray for everyone hurting out there in this great big world , that they may have moments of peace

Matilda is mad at me  for some reason. she hasnt slept with me for 2 nights. what a bitch haha.
as for me , my hep c treatment has started. i am just over a week in. I am hoping i will not get anemic again and need blood transfusions. so far my Hemoglobin is was up . i started at 152. it is now at 140.this is regular and a good count. a person doesnt get transfused till 90. in general 115-160 is normal. my platelets have fallen quickly though. i went from 165 to a low 100.
it is nice to have my ehealth on line so i can see my blood counts my self.
so i am living day to day and have taken lots off my plate.
my worry and rushing has calmed down :)
today i pray for everyone hurting out there in this great big world , that they may have moments of peace

calmed down days

after the crazy cat attack from Presley last week things have calmed down . He does not come over anymore. the soap and water worked ! there is still one orange cat coming to door, but we will get her ;)

long sunny day

645 am -meowwwwwwwwww-oh ,its too early!  get up and let Tildy out. she likes getting out before the gang of cats wake up and invade her space. today was a day of gardening and preparing camper van. i am allowing my brother to fix transmission leak. i said i would never let him touch my vehicles again ,omg , what am i doing ! its 521pm i just got on my laptop, sleepy

early morning rise- meow meow

Matilda is fed, I am grumpy, She has gone outside ,waiting for her to come in so she doesnt get gassed by the neighbor. i just heard a cat moaning . went to look and it was a black cat that doesnt belong at the neighbors home . she was meowing as if she was hurt , i hope the tenants havent put poison outside and decided to keep their cats inside

Matilda and Presley

This morning I woke up and fed Tildy(Matilda) and made myself my 1 cup of java as usual . I opened the door for Tildy to go outside. I then went to the bathroom ,went to door and called Tildy . She was already in my bedroom  though. so i closed the door. Matilda was in prowl position at the base of my bedroom door. I got up and she followed me down the hallway, as I told her to calm down that there were no cats in our home.
I opened door again and sat in my living room chair. Then I saw him . Presley. he was sleeping in her chair at the kitchen table ,again !
This time i was prepared . i told Tildy to stay back and I sprayed Presley in his eyes with mild soapy water. he growled and hissed at me and would not move! I called outside to the owner "come get your cat out of our house !!!
Finally after spraying the cat more he dashed out. I told the owner of the cat what id done .
He came knocking on my front door,yelling at me ,telling me to close my doors so his cats wouldnt come in . he said if my cat comes near his patio he will douse him with gasoline . and then he left. I began crying and talking to friends about the episode.
They say they are moving soon . they have been there for 2 months so i believe they probably didnt pay their rent. I cant wait for this day. its a good thing I am not as I use to be or the guy would have got dummied with a metal bar , never mind the bamboo stick i poke his cat with !!!

Caturday blues

happy Caturday! i am going to try this Blogging once more. a friend has inspired me to start again . thanks #Andrea.
My cat Matilda and i have been kicked off our bed as we let roommate fall a sleep while watching a show last night. I really hate doing this. i must get stronger and tell him to get out. it makes our sleep lousy and this is not fair.
so here we sit ,on the couch :)
lots of chaos last couple days. i am not going to write about it now as more will arise. i think or have a feeling this bloggging will be good for me:)